When I chased my life, little did I realize,
What was wrong in me, what needed a slice.
Having the pause alone has given me the much needed blessing,
To face thy demons, to erase the unkind, the vice.
Lately I feel that this entire life is a mirror.
All the friends and likeable are my good edges.
All the enemies, unlikable ones are my own vices.
In the end I am alone soaring this world, quite astonishing isn't it?
The escape game to play is who am I and what am I supposed to be?
What is the reality here, I wonder?
Only the nature makes me see far closer..
Waited for years for this learning!
That nothing matters here, only unlearning.
It took me to taste success to know this wasn't it!
It took me fights to know, what was the war all about!
Maybe one day I wake up and I stop fighting
For I would have loved all my edges and vices within
Oh dear lord of this universe,
Holding me while I falter and cry.
My gratitude for this awareness today!
I wish to see you someday!
Saturday 9 May 2020
Monday 24 July 2017
My Master
And his love, is what , anchoring my heart placed gently over the lotus flower,
Made an amazing cradle of his own.
My life has been bestowed with immense benedictions, rare to find them everywhere
You bring a ride of joy, my meditation with you an intense love story
Realising the grace all over me ,it's no longer just something merry
I learnt to listen to songs of silence, in your memories
Etched in my heart to the deepest corners and peripheries
Learnt just how profound can love be i wonder now
Just how blessed I am to witness this enormous love, I take a bow
With upcoming year I grow another year older
Growing in your love, your footsteps have given me the direction, the final trailer.
No words can be found to eulogize this love story,
Am all yours my Krishna my Kanha my Chari :)
And his love, is what , anchoring my heart placed gently over the lotus flower,
Made an amazing cradle of his own.
My life has been bestowed with immense benedictions, rare to find them everywhere
You bring a ride of joy, my meditation with you an intense love story
Realising the grace all over me ,it's no longer just something merry
I learnt to listen to songs of silence, in your memories
Etched in my heart to the deepest corners and peripheries
Learnt just how profound can love be i wonder now
Just how blessed I am to witness this enormous love, I take a bow
With upcoming year I grow another year older
Growing in your love, your footsteps have given me the direction, the final trailer.
No words can be found to eulogize this love story,
Am all yours my Krishna my Kanha my Chari :)
Tuesday 19 May 2015
Heartfullness- Lyon
Heartfullness
Talking of intangible feelings and subtle bodies always overwhelms me and takes me to another dimension where I don't speak but let feelings bloom out and express themselves without the heaviness of words. Just like the nature unravels itself at times rendering us spellbound!
Second day was a huge bunch of roses with different aroma altogether.
I had attended the meditation and had next to attend the youth seminar. It was a totally different and deep embarking emotion that I experienced this day. Meeting new people eating with them and sharing ideas like you know them from ages,isn't it interesting yet strange!
From learning about the subtle bodies to knowing more experiences of other people to making new friends exchanging ideas and most of all, witnessing the deep lying love exfoliating like never before in that aura.
It rendered me Speechless and I could just keep floating in that intense beautiful brook of love around me.
It felt like my wait was over and now I received what I always wanted to!
Well that is not it, there was a huge cluster of like minded people who craved for the similar feelings and having met them was in itself a revelation.
I could literally feel the vibrations and the energy around me due to the presence of amazing people I met. From workshops to relaxation, it recharged me to become a better me.
Just imagine, you visit a new place, you discover new things and meet new people yet it seems like you know them from long.
Having stayed four days in Lyon spending time with thousands of new people, learning from their lives,their experiences and expressing your heart out freely was so soothing.
All I can say is I understand something more about life now.
There is some part of me in everyone and everyone has some part of me in them.
That means there's a huge connection between people and the sole thing that answers this is Oneness.We are all bound to meet people who have a reason to meet us. And somewhere they have some part of you which relates you with them.
Knowing these things leave you stunned and you discover happiness.
I found a family and am going to cherish those moments in my heart always.
This emotion that I feel is strong yet subtle and hence its a revelation for me and am enjoying every moment of it!
Talking of intangible feelings and subtle bodies always overwhelms me and takes me to another dimension where I don't speak but let feelings bloom out and express themselves without the heaviness of words. Just like the nature unravels itself at times rendering us spellbound!
One such experience is here where I was left just deeply absorbed in profound divine love and I rested absorbed within my heart's meanderings. I left for the Heartfullness Seminar in Lyon and I had no hint of how it is going to be. Once I arrived the amazing encounters began.
I went for the meditation and had a usual feel in the evening of 14th May after which had time to meet a whole lot of amazing people from all across Europe, discover the soothing beauty of Lyon filled with Nature's blessings.
From Yogic turtles to soothing roses everything was a sheer bliss for me.
Second day was a huge bunch of roses with different aroma altogether.
I had attended the meditation and had next to attend the youth seminar. It was a totally different and deep embarking emotion that I experienced this day. Meeting new people eating with them and sharing ideas like you know them from ages,isn't it interesting yet strange!
From learning about the subtle bodies to knowing more experiences of other people to making new friends exchanging ideas and most of all, witnessing the deep lying love exfoliating like never before in that aura.
It rendered me Speechless and I could just keep floating in that intense beautiful brook of love around me.
It felt like my wait was over and now I received what I always wanted to!
Well that is not it, there was a huge cluster of like minded people who craved for the similar feelings and having met them was in itself a revelation.
I could literally feel the vibrations and the energy around me due to the presence of amazing people I met. From workshops to relaxation, it recharged me to become a better me.
Just imagine, you visit a new place, you discover new things and meet new people yet it seems like you know them from long.
Having stayed four days in Lyon spending time with thousands of new people, learning from their lives,their experiences and expressing your heart out freely was so soothing.
All I can say is I understand something more about life now.There is some part of me in everyone and everyone has some part of me in them.
That means there's a huge connection between people and the sole thing that answers this is Oneness.We are all bound to meet people who have a reason to meet us. And somewhere they have some part of you which relates you with them.
Knowing these things leave you stunned and you discover happiness.
I found a family and am going to cherish those moments in my heart always.
This emotion that I feel is strong yet subtle and hence its a revelation for me and am enjoying every moment of it!
Wednesday 22 April 2015
A Week to Remember...
It was yet another day and I was the same bored me tied up in the moribund life with lack of adventure and fun. Needed a break from long but never expected something like this.
11th April 2015 the day I shall never forget.
The day was quite fast in its pace- met the Indian Prime Minister, gave several interviews and had a lifetime selfie with the PM Modiji.
What could I say, I was stunned and almost skipped a beat. Not even paused and had to pack for the Spain trip and that was one of the most awaited one for me due to the International event -EUROAVIA CONGRESS. Had no clue whatsoever about it but yeah knew it is going to be real serious stuff and going to be hard for me (obvious reasons) but what it turned out to be was phenomenal and it rendered me speechless.
I reached Seville on 12th and was welcomed by the organizers from AS Seville, special thanks Carlos :) . Then on , my surprises had begun. The city is absolutely magnificent with its splendid beauty. I forgot all my tiredness and laziness and went on to see the amazing ancient heritage it had preserved. The day went fine with the welcome dinner and meeting everyone on the terrace near the really really cute pool. At first I had no clue what its going to be like but the next day surprised me with the shocking formal 10 hours of presentations and congress meeting. Literally made me think- I really wanted to get this? But guess what that was static thought and soon vanished off when the real flow had begun. I enjoyed staying like flocks of sheep with the girls from germany, poland, valencia, bucharest, istanbul in the same room sharing one bathroom and the dimmest ever light for the entire room. It didnt bother me long because I started to look beyond the hurdles. I found amazing people in there which was enough to make me feel good. After every morning session I enjoyed the 1 hour of meal with new people, knowing their interests , their culture, their music and their lifestyles and it was so much fun. Every evening was full of fun too because of the amazing TAPAS and Spanish food with the multicultural flavour of my friends.
I began to like the newly found Family and Began feeling affectionate towards them. The Spirits Night was the funniest and craziest part with the world coming together on a single table and I could not ask for more. Laughed till my stomach ached and enjoyed the colours of the world.
As the 3 day was Airbus Defense visit the excitements were high and the energy soared even more. The day went well with knowing the interesting A400M FAL and clicking the wing posed picture with my friends. The evening was spent exploring new places in Seville which always leave me flabbergasted and give me soothing satisfaction of discovering something new. Day 4 made me feel am going to miss the life here. Sleeping late and waking up early with lot of new adjustments and new fun to life. Suddenly my life had taken interest in myself and I was liking it.
I never felt tired even after hard time sitting for hours (unusual for me ) because there was this aura of freshness around me. Also, I started liking the sessions with enormous German questions and coolest motions framed during the congress. Again the friends I have found remind me of the best times of my life. It definitely shall remain one of the memorable ones. From playing crazy hand games to making the Euroavia Anthem, to trying to learn hairdo and much more.
It never had an end and infact more and more it taught.
The final presentation , the final dinner was scaring me for obvious reason that its FINAL,
oh god it was like am leaving something that was mine.
Or shall I say I felt like I belonged to that place which now am going to leave. For a week I had forgotten the Toulouse life, the work, the studies, the cooking everything and had let free with loads of laughter and loads of fun with never before discovery of new cultures. The final dinner was special and the departure was painful. It made me overwhelmed as I said Goodbye to my pals. I really am short of words now and the word really shall never be really, because I took "REALLY REALLY" along thanks to our IB president Piya :D . Well! I can go on and on but this is something intangible and inexplicable for me even after a whole page about it.
Just want to say I really really want to see you again Guys! I miss and love my Euroavia Family :*
It was yet another day and I was the same bored me tied up in the moribund life with lack of adventure and fun. Needed a break from long but never expected something like this.
11th April 2015 the day I shall never forget.
The day was quite fast in its pace- met the Indian Prime Minister, gave several interviews and had a lifetime selfie with the PM Modiji.
I reached Seville on 12th and was welcomed by the organizers from AS Seville, special thanks Carlos :) . Then on , my surprises had begun. The city is absolutely magnificent with its splendid beauty. I forgot all my tiredness and laziness and went on to see the amazing ancient heritage it had preserved. The day went fine with the welcome dinner and meeting everyone on the terrace near the really really cute pool. At first I had no clue what its going to be like but the next day surprised me with the shocking formal 10 hours of presentations and congress meeting. Literally made me think- I really wanted to get this? But guess what that was static thought and soon vanished off when the real flow had begun. I enjoyed staying like flocks of sheep with the girls from germany, poland, valencia, bucharest, istanbul in the same room sharing one bathroom and the dimmest ever light for the entire room. It didnt bother me long because I started to look beyond the hurdles. I found amazing people in there which was enough to make me feel good. After every morning session I enjoyed the 1 hour of meal with new people, knowing their interests , their culture, their music and their lifestyles and it was so much fun. Every evening was full of fun too because of the amazing TAPAS and Spanish food with the multicultural flavour of my friends.
I began to like the newly found Family and Began feeling affectionate towards them. The Spirits Night was the funniest and craziest part with the world coming together on a single table and I could not ask for more. Laughed till my stomach ached and enjoyed the colours of the world.As the 3 day was Airbus Defense visit the excitements were high and the energy soared even more. The day went well with knowing the interesting A400M FAL and clicking the wing posed picture with my friends. The evening was spent exploring new places in Seville which always leave me flabbergasted and give me soothing satisfaction of discovering something new. Day 4 made me feel am going to miss the life here. Sleeping late and waking up early with lot of new adjustments and new fun to life. Suddenly my life had taken interest in myself and I was liking it.
I never felt tired even after hard time sitting for hours (unusual for me ) because there was this aura of freshness around me. Also, I started liking the sessions with enormous German questions and coolest motions framed during the congress. Again the friends I have found remind me of the best times of my life. It definitely shall remain one of the memorable ones. From playing crazy hand games to making the Euroavia Anthem, to trying to learn hairdo and much more.It never had an end and infact more and more it taught.
The final presentation , the final dinner was scaring me for obvious reason that its FINAL,
oh god it was like am leaving something that was mine.
Just want to say I really really want to see you again Guys! I miss and love my Euroavia Family :*
Tuesday 17 February 2015
serendipity
2014
An year full of changes! or serendipity would be apt :) I begin with the arrival in the new place-my dream land "France" dreamt of which since 2010. Finally I reach here curious, timid, yet excited and confronting the unexpected surprises.
Covered with the Nature's blessing this city welcomed me well with open arms ^_^
Well well, like any new place this had its own share of good and gloomy stuff (meh more gloomy initially). Describing at minuscule level is a tedious one though. Let me recall.. It was a thrill in the start and began to accelerate in various dimensions no later. From being an ambitious one, I sublimed to the one at more peace. Discovering was the word. Unlike in India where I was grossed up by the thoughts of normal "grishasti chalao" aims viz education, job, money, happiness and family; I discovered way cool 'to do' stuff for myself.
It took me time to actually break that cocoon within and spread thy wings. What exactly One wants ain't an easy deal! succumbed by the monotonous obnoxious life, I was trying to get an answer and had a great toll of unwanted pressure on the head ranging from reports, exams, homesickness( 86%) , long hours classes, responsibilities and yes off-course the daily household chores! ufff Give me a break someone was all I felt. And it's rightly said when its right time, it happens and yes the good thing happened too. I knew what I wanted actually, I got the strength to break the unwanted walls of rules I followed whole life, courage to walk with confidence alone yet never lonely ;) and the power to be fearless to do what I like. The key which lead to this miracle was the realisation that I can't be the GIVER always. Yeah I am a human and I have the right to say NO. No to everything that I slightly or intensely dislike. No to the stereotype society and No to the useless meaningless indulgences which are considered 'COOL'.
Honestly, initially I thought, doing what everyone does makes you likable. Hell NO.. I don't care if people like or dislike, what my inner space feels is all that matters now. I live in the world being together with myself. That me who never lets me down , who knows what fits my feet and what tickles my soul. I am away from all the boundaries and yet not lost. What else do I be afraid of?
people want knowledge, want money, want beers, but is that really what i want? Never can it be. My real self wants a space of my own. My world which has much more to explore. I can't waste my time doing the so called conventional TAREEQA. I choose to be the one I feel- crazy at times, freaky at another and yet sophisticated when i wanna be :) as long as my space says yes you are no wrong my girl go on. do not hesitate because all the secrets of universe are within you and nowhere else.
To understand it better i tell you what I found. I discovered my potentials only when I was grounded by myself. Yes its only me who can actually stop me and none can. Having known this I was enlightened :D I understood that none but I am responsible to hurt myself, to be at peace or to learn. I began what I really wanted from myself- to be a better me. yes. the latest version of me tries to compete with my own self to become even more content not a GREED, rather an aspirant for the best ME. I do what I think will pave my way to exfoliate the dead edges of my persona and unravel the hidden purity in me. Knowing within helped me discover this secret. Self introspection can do wonders I know now.
Dancing to my heart's tunes, humming the musings hidden within and chanting the music of my soul is what I aspire. Human nature, the silly cries, the unexpected failures shall never bend me any low because it's my decision to fall or make the problem fall. No overconfidence, just a faith in oneself will do the justice. Believe and not let loose because once you are nearing the deepest darkness, dawn awaits to shower its blessings no later...
hope everyone finds their space in this World their own beautiful world :)
An year full of changes! or serendipity would be apt :) I begin with the arrival in the new place-my dream land "France" dreamt of which since 2010. Finally I reach here curious, timid, yet excited and confronting the unexpected surprises.
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| toulouse at its best |
Covered with the Nature's blessing this city welcomed me well with open arms ^_^
It took me time to actually break that cocoon within and spread thy wings. What exactly One wants ain't an easy deal! succumbed by the monotonous obnoxious life, I was trying to get an answer and had a great toll of unwanted pressure on the head ranging from reports, exams, homesickness( 86%) , long hours classes, responsibilities and yes off-course the daily household chores! ufff Give me a break someone was all I felt. And it's rightly said when its right time, it happens and yes the good thing happened too. I knew what I wanted actually, I got the strength to break the unwanted walls of rules I followed whole life, courage to walk with confidence alone yet never lonely ;) and the power to be fearless to do what I like. The key which lead to this miracle was the realisation that I can't be the GIVER always. Yeah I am a human and I have the right to say NO. No to everything that I slightly or intensely dislike. No to the stereotype society and No to the useless meaningless indulgences which are considered 'COOL'.
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| do what feels good |
Honestly, initially I thought, doing what everyone does makes you likable. Hell NO.. I don't care if people like or dislike, what my inner space feels is all that matters now. I live in the world being together with myself. That me who never lets me down , who knows what fits my feet and what tickles my soul. I am away from all the boundaries and yet not lost. What else do I be afraid of?
people want knowledge, want money, want beers, but is that really what i want? Never can it be. My real self wants a space of my own. My world which has much more to explore. I can't waste my time doing the so called conventional TAREEQA. I choose to be the one I feel- crazy at times, freaky at another and yet sophisticated when i wanna be :) as long as my space says yes you are no wrong my girl go on. do not hesitate because all the secrets of universe are within you and nowhere else.
To understand it better i tell you what I found. I discovered my potentials only when I was grounded by myself. Yes its only me who can actually stop me and none can. Having known this I was enlightened :D I understood that none but I am responsible to hurt myself, to be at peace or to learn. I began what I really wanted from myself- to be a better me. yes. the latest version of me tries to compete with my own self to become even more content not a GREED, rather an aspirant for the best ME. I do what I think will pave my way to exfoliate the dead edges of my persona and unravel the hidden purity in me. Knowing within helped me discover this secret. Self introspection can do wonders I know now.hope everyone finds their space in this World their own beautiful world :)
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